Waves and Particles – Countless Worlds

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A few months ago, The Crew asked me to create a 3D model in the SketchUp program. They thought it might help explain how dimensions, densities, frequencies, parallel universes, all that stuff works together.

I’ve procrastinated on sharing it because I really wanted to make a video of it (and hopefully I will… someday), and I’d been having technical issues. However, I awoke this morning at 3:30 with a strong sense that this needs to get online.

So here is a series of images. I’ll leave it to you to absorb (and please ask questions if you like), and I’ll just share a few thoughts.

  • Consider that the curvy wave-tubes represent “worlds” that operate at a particular frequency and amplitude, so to speak.

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  • To consider some variables in how these worlds may manifest differently, let’s look at some characteristics:
    • amplitude (the height of the wave’s diagrammatic curvy tube)
    • frequency (how far apart the peaks and valleys of the wave’s tube are).
    • width and thickness of the curvy tube itself: is it round, flat, oval, thick, thin…
    • the color of the wave
    • pattern that might occur along the wave (in these diagrams, look at the fat yellow tubes and the violet tubes, for example
    • Imagine that each wave also makes a particular sound…

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  • You could also imagine applying variations in time. What if instead of a continuous line, we’re looking at a dot that merely travels that line, and it moves through all the possible points along that path?

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  • Now imagine, what if these waves were sitting on a table top that was vibrating, shaking about… Or maybe the table top is following the path of yet another wave? Or a spiral?

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Now that you have some idea of how complex this puzzle can get, here’s what The Crew would really like for you to consider.

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  • Look at how the various waves intersect.
    • Some of the tubes (such as the green one), being very thin, represent a world in which beings appear within a narrow range of reality and experience. Say everyone thinks and feels the same way. So a green tube running in one direction might intersect a green tube running in another direction, and the people in those worlds might not realize that they are experiencing the meeting of two worlds.

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    • Some of the tubes are quite vast (such as the white/violet one), encompassing a lot of area, and even have pattern on them. This could represent a world in which some beings might be alike, and others may be very different from one another. Just the same, they all share the same time/space continuum and are aware of one another’s presence. Same as with the green-wave world: When they meet from different directions, all still seems much the same.

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  • What happens when two different kinds of tubes intersect, such as the green with the white/violet? It might only happen in a tiny spot, as in how tiny the green tube is, compared to the other tube. It only meets the fat tube in a little bit. That tiny intersection could represent a single person from the green tube meeting a single person from the white/violet tube. That person might tell one of his green-tube companions that the met a being from the white/violet tube. Do you think his green-tube buddies would have the same experience? What are the chances they would believe him?

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  • What happens if some beings in some of the world-waves can jump from one wave to another?
    • Oh, like maybe in a space ship…?
    • Or maybe some folks have figured out how to do it without a spaceship?
    • How long do you think they could stay in another world? A nanosecond, just long enough to get caught on camera?
    • Or maybe for an entire lifetime…

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  • What if one kind of being figured out how to appear in more than one wave at once… Even if only sometimes?

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When we imagine ourselves as portable little specks, popping in and out of waves, over and over again, parts of a tremendous universe full of universes…

It starts to sound a bit like a multi-dimensional roller-coaster, eh?

Maybe it’s time to throw those hands up and enjoy the thrill… Once it’s over, we can go get back in line, try it again… Or just sit back and watch others…

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Heruka’s Dream Instructions


(From Heruka, through Leslee)

These steps are suggested to help us gather information while we sleep. They came to me on April 22, when I was struggling with some frustration over feeling like things were moving in slow motion. I’ve found them to be incerdibly helpful so far.

1. Generate a peaceful mind. Demanding won’t work. Visualize yourself already knowing how to make these dream connections. This, of all the steps, takes the most practice.

2. Place the request to meet a Being of your choice. Hold the idea of a Being very loosely… Do NOT visualize. Prepare yourself to accept whatever arises, and TRUST.

3. Place the request to recieve information. Try to hold this in the most generic terms possible. Yet have a sense of [forth] the specific feeling you wish to experience when you return ‘here’. What will ‘accomplishment’ feel like?

4. If it feels appropriate, visualize the ‘golden cord’, from your Pineal to your High Heart, especially if your mind wanders while trying to do the other steps.


5. Consider your requests: where, who, what to discuss/learn, why to meet. Choose one as a priority, in case all requests cannot be met simultaneously.

6. Request how much to recall.

Oracle to OPPT and Many Things In-Between

Earth in the Eye of Oracle

Conversation with Iltheos, Konstantinos & Leslee, 24 February 2013

(First, a bit of explanation from Leslee…)

Before I share the conversation itself, I’d like to offer a little background info.

At the beginning of the conversation, Iltheos refers to my friend “Stephen”. I hope to be sharing more about Steve and his work soon; for now, I’ll keep it brief.

For years, Steve has been guided to build many devices, with the understanding that they somehow assist in the emergence of the New Earth. These devices work with energy in powerful ways. I’ve had the privilege of experiencing some of these devices first-hand, and since I don’t want to steal Steve’s thunder, I’ll just say that I find them amazing. He and his partner Susan have recently been asked to begin to share this work. Please check out their new site, “Portal of Lyra”… It’s still under construction, but if you “follow” it you’ll receive updates as they add more images and information about what’s going on.

Iltheos also refers to “Oracle”; I’ll also explain a little bit about this term.

“Oracle” refers to a collective of very ancient and advanced beings who have connected with several of us recently under a variety of “names”. Their energy is very pure and “unaffiliated”. They are so ancient and advanced that to try to describe them as a race, species, or even with a name is irrelevant, aside from the convenience it grants us as humans who still use words to communicate.

Oracle tell us they originated many aeons ago in Alpha Centuari, and evolved from the original bi-pedal creatures manifested in this universe by the Elohim. These original beings first manifested upon Lyra, and from them developed most star-traveling races we’re familiar with: Pleiadians, Arcturians, Andromedans, Sirians, Orions, etc.

“Oracle” (the term) also refers to the same collective as the “Masters Of Change’ (which I’ve mentioned a little previously).

Iltheos shared with us that although we experience him as an Arcturian, he is also part of this collective, Oracle, as are some guides that many of us follow. Their ship “arrived” in our solar system in late January 2013, and at this time I understand their ship literally enveloped our planet, in a benevolent and protective manner. Oracle are building a New Firmament for us, a protective field for the planet, and they guide many of us in activities that assist this effort (whether we realize it or not!).

The image below depicts the way I have seen their “ship”. To give you an idea of its size, the blue sphere in the center is Earth. I understand that oftentimes when I travel astrally to places that appear to be planets or “Earthly” locations (rather than “ships” in the conventional “Star-Trek” sense), I’m actually going to this “ship”. I feel this may well be true for many of us.

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Oracle’s Light Ship Enveloping Earth (Urantia), as perceived by Leslee on 23 February 2013

During the first part of the conversation Konstaninos and I were having on February 24, I had been describing to Kosta these devices that Steve has been building. I shared how sitting with them had led me and other friends to receive some powerful meditations, visions, and messages.Now lets get to the conversation.

Iltheos let Konstantinos know that he wished to speak about this, and that started things. For the most part during this conversation, Konstantinos channeled Iltheos, but sometimes Iltheos popped back and forth between us.

(For those who are not familiar with Iltheos, please see Konstantino’s drawings of his likenesses, and posts about conversations with Iltheos, on Awakening To The Divine, or Spirit Train Chronicles.)

Thus the conversation began:

First, a message for Stephen, about his devices.

He should continue doing things his way. He does very well so far, and all of these devices are very significant. There are more things to them than he currently knows.

(Leslee asked Iltheos about the crystal grids laid out around the device.)

The crystal grids are related to the Solar system. The crystal grid is a model of the universe, a simulation of the universe. Through these projects, (all of) you learn about the construction of your inner divinity and you learn that there is no separation between you and the space you think you’re in, no separation between your inner universe and the one you think is outside.

(Leslee asked Konstantinos two questions for Iltheos.)

(Question 1: About our Guides, when we sit and can feel their presence, but don’t really receive a specific “message”… can he please explain more of what that’s about?)

(Question 2: Why is it that our choices are sometimes not clear?)

Guidance is many things, appears in many forms and has many facets. By that, I mean that guidance can appear in words but also, in the form of silence. Silence is communication too, maybe a stronger communication than anything you have experienced so far in this lifetime.

The presence that you feel is energy. Words are a different kind of energy; they change and translate the energy.

So whether you hear or feel, you still connect with us or whatever you feel you’re connected with. When you feel, you see that you already have answers, no questions.While you feel us, you can understand more things in that very moment, which moment cannot probably be measured. You realize for that ‘nanosecond’ that you don’t have questions, but only answers, because you only FEEL. But when you try to adjust this very feeling into words, then the answers fade (like your dream memories when you wake up in the physical world) and questions start to arise.

Next question: Why is it that our choices are sometimes not clear?

Even the non-clarity is clarity itself in its own way.

(Leslee asked: Can you please explain further?)

Of course. You know the answers already.

Even if you know them, sometimes you feel that you have a not very clear situation which seems like a paradox. At the same time, the answer that you need at that very moment maybe seems dramatic, unclear, but that moment is exactly what you need to experience, in this moment.

This yearning that you feel in your need to receive a little more is part of that unlimited power that you call “will”. So while you are moving onto this path as seekers of your personal truth and guidance, you discover, even if you don’t realize it consciously sometimes, that whatever you experience is an answer that is consisted from codes, and this series of answers wait for you to be un-coded, from your actions.

In a few words, you ask to receive. Well, in this moment of change, most of the times you have to act in order to receive.

Of course sometimes some of you may say that you are afraid of the drama, but as you experience specific moments of your life, this is also an action in itself. You are choosing to experience it as drama. And so a result will come from this action too…

These results are the codes that wait for you to solve them, in order to move on.

These messages are meant for the Heart, not the brain, because the New Man that arises, the man that moves on to the Adulthood, will not have a mind any more.

But of course by this doesn’t mean he is going to be stupid. What We mean and what I mean, is that your Heart will be your new Mind. We are all part of a bigger being, and so with Oracle.

(Leslee asked: Do you suggest another word besides “Oracle”?)

To a specific degree it is accurate.

It is not random that the heart is the thing that gives life to your body, transfers life through your blood. And so, this Heart (and I mean the one with capital H) is the one that gives and is going to give you life, which includes, among many other things, intelligence.

This great Heart is the one that will be the only thing that you will ever need. You won’t need for anything more than this. Name it “Guidance”, or whatever else you think is your problem at that very moment, and your Heart will be your shelter and center.

We’re done for now.

(Leslee observed: What I’m seeing is that what much of what arises for me right now is so that I can learn the skill of making choices from the Heart. Yes?)

Yes. But not through conflict.

(Leslee asked: What does that mean?)

(At this point Iltheos connected directly with Leslee.)

It’s not a CONFLICT between Mind and Heart. It’s like a growth, maturation. Ripening, blossoming, reaching of fullness… It’s the SHIFT – that is the shift that you are making right now. You are learning what groups you resonate with, you are finding your families; this is like a huge Gathering.

This is the new way of receiving information, by coming together in groups, even if it is just 2 people. You will NOT receive all the info you need unless you do this. It’s your next step to 5D. You have to learn this step before you can move forward, and this is why there seems to have been a stopping of energy flow since 12/12/12.

Once you accept that this is the next step, you will accelerate your journey, your path, tremendously and profoundly, and through this, you will find great joy.

(Leslee asked: I’m to draw what I saw of earth & ships, yesterday?)

That’s only one piece. Konstantinos has the other piece. I will show it to him.

(Leslee: I need to do my piece first. That’s why I need to go, so I can draw.)

We gave you the motive.”

(This message gives me, Leslee, the motivation & energy to make the drawings.)

(What about the new firmament, and the slits I saw when I was flying from Phoenix to Portland last Monday?)

This is part of it.

(Iltheos goes back to Konstantinos now.)

What you saw during your trip, while in the sky, is part of the things that you were feeling that you needed to experience, lots of times before.

(Leslee asked: They were ships?)

Yes, they were ships. Their essence was pure light. They met your light at that very appropriate moment. This energy was waiting for you to be in the sky.

(Leslee: It was like they were waving.)


(Leslee asked: If people ask what kinds of ships they were… It’s important that they NOT have a name?)

They do not need a name – does the Infinite need a name, even if you use a WORD for it? And that’s part of the point.

(Explanation from Leslee: Below is a sketch of one of the Light Ships I saw north of Las Vegas on 18 February 2013, while the jet I was traveling north in was passing an area east of Quartzite Mountain. I saw 3 similar ships during the span of about 10 minutes. They all appeared among the clouds as very narrow slits of light that became brighter and brighter until almost blindingly brilliant, and then faded gradually back into the hazy clouds that were hovering between the two mountain ranges. It almost looked as if the sky was being peeled open and another sun was blazing through a tear in a veil… But as they faded, they held a shape like a very thin strip, transforming from the very bright strip to a light strip, finally to a distinct lavender streak in the clouds, and eventually disappearing.)

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Light Ships Over Arizona, as seen by Leslee from an airplane, 18 February 2013

(Leslee asked: What about the clouds I saw afterwards? The lenticular clouds. When I saw them, I knew they were not ships, and I felt disappointed and confused, because so many people feel these types of clouds are ships. I don’t want to tell them they are NOT ships!)

These (particular clouds that you saw after the ships) were not ships, but they are an expression of the infinite beings’ work that they are doing – and we are doing now. But sometimes they are ships, just not in that moment.

(We should not assume they are always ships.)

(Explanation from Leslee: At this point we were talking about lenticular clouds that I saw after the light ships. There was a series of 5 of them, all aligned at the same height in the sky, above the mountains. As we flew around them, their shapes shifted and I could see how unseen forces were molding the clouds, sweeping them up and around. Energetically, on the one hand they “merely’ felt like clouds of water vapor; on the other hand, I could feel very strongly that they were being actively manipulated by  forces other than air currents. It was very profound, to me, to be flying alongside them at that height. I sensed at that time that someone was very happy I was airborne, and that flying – even in a jet – opened new energetic doorways for me.)

(Leslee commented: About the images of the ship of “Oracle”, that I saw when I was meditating yesterday. I got a very strong impression of how the crew was on the ship.)

The ship are them and they are the ship.

(Leslee asked: About the diagram that I was asked to begin a couple weeks ago, showing wavelengths and frequencies and amplitudes, and how they weave together and intersect, and that at the point where things intersect, then we see through multiple “dimensions”. That diagram – is it finished?)

It is finished. It is time to share it, yes.

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“Particles and Waves”, an image illustrating how energy and matter converge, intersect, overlap and interweave

[Another explanation from Leslee: I was asked several weeks ago to produce a 3D computer generated model depicting how waves and particles intersect and interweave, as a device to help people visualize the possibilities that arise regarding energies and particles meeting and overlapping. This image is a snapshot from that model, showing several different waves woven together. They vary in color, amplitude, frequency, and intensity… And perhaps you can see how, even beyond that, some appear like very tiny tubes while others flow like rivers. And pattern adds yet another dimension to their characteristics. It’s my understanding that when we have experiences of multiple “places” or “dimensions” simultaneously, we are peeking in at one (or more) of these points where different phenomena converge.]

(Leslee explains: I asked next about a legal notice I received recently, and my confusion about how to respond. In my heart I know that I should ignore it and allow it to unfold, but that seems so contradictory to what “society” expects. I feel expected to take action, to respond, to defend my position. Yet I also see how much energy that would take, and what a distraction it would be.)

Let the lawsuit go.

It is a chance, not a problem, to show how you really cannot be harmed by the old system.

(It’s part of what I volunteered for in this lifetime.)

It will end well. You have been through this before … And through these experiences, you have met beautiful people, made many friends… These challenges are like a mere shadow, a black smoke, so blow it away.

(Leslee explains: Related to this, I next asked about OPPT. Meanwhile, Kosta was thinking to himself that he wished he had the money to help me, when suddenly he said, “Wow, that was like being thunderstruck!” Here is what Iltheos said to him.)

But can’t you see that if you help her, you would condemn her? Her power lies in this experience, so it must be embraced.”

Share this with others. Many others are in a similar situation. This will help the OPPT get finished, completed, and then enough people will use it so that it becomes real.

It’s a paradox, a contrast, two opposites co-exist. This information – OPPT – is there for everyone to see and think about, and for some people they will not choose to see it. It’s like not asking for help.

(Leslee explains: This confirmed what I had been receiving/seeing, and what Oracle had said last night: That I need to learn more about OPPT, become involved in that process, and put it to use in this situation that has arisen for me. This is part of the bigger role I committed to play here in this lifetime.)

End of Conversation.

To wrap up this rambling post, I’ll add that after this conversation, I received some much-desired clarity about several topics in my life. In particular, I had been wondering what the heck was going on with some of the changes I’m experiencing. I could not tell if I was being “tested” in some ways, or being given subtle hints about how to move forward. Contemplating the guidelines Iltheos offered help me to see things more clearly and peacefully, and for that I’m quite grateful.

This post has taken a while for me to prepare. I wanted to be sure that Stephen approved of the content, and that my words matched Kosta’s understanding of Iltheo’s words. On top of that, it covered so many topics that I’ve been subsequently “distracted” by trying to understand how the pieces fit together, and what additional information I might need to provide, or sketches I might need to make.

It seems to be an on-going work. However, today seems a good day to post the results so far. I’m quite sure there will be more posts that talk about everything from OPPT and related topics to Light Ships, the Firmament, Oracle, Masters of Change… and on and on and on. My head is also spinning with the more vivid dreams I’ve been having in the past few weeks.

I/we hope these ideas inspire you, or perhaps bring new helpful information into your sphere of thought.


(All images by Leslee Hare)

Abiquor Images: Model Fly-Through and Still Images – 4 March 2013

Aerial View of Abiquor
Aerial View of Abiquor

I’ve just posted a VERY low-resolution animated fly-through of the Abiquor model to YouTube, to share with everyone…

It’s very fuzzy and atmospheric (which is probably perfect!), yet I think gives a nice big-picture tour of what I’ve been shown of Abiquor, and been able to convey into the model, since last summer.

I’m also adding some more detailed stills from the model at the end of this post. I’ve toyed with the idea of whether to “label” the various “buildings” as I understand them… And I decided that people may “see more” if I don’t say what I think the images represent.

Several folks and I have seen additional bits of Abiquor (and/or other Cities of Light) since I’ve had time to work more in the model, and I think this is wonderful! One thing I’ve always sensed about Abiquor is that it is both “real” and fluid, both already manifest AND yet emerging…

Over the past month, I’ve been seeing more and more examples of how when we work together, we see more than when we work alone.

So I hope this video will spark some inspiration for you!

Please feel free to comment and/or share any insights or experiences you’ve had that you feel relate to Abiquor, and let’s watch together as the pieces converge.

With lots of love,



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Introducing Assalara A’BeyaSufa Ahmanita

Assalara A’BeyaSufa Ahmanita

Assalara A'BeyaSufa Ahmanita
Assalara A’BeyaSufa Ahmanita

This post has been several months in the “making”.

In late July of 2012, Rhonda first contacted me about ships and crews and beings. We exchanged a few emails, and acknowledged that we felt a strong connection.

I was immersed in preparing for the Transformation 2012 Conference in Pagosa Springs, CO, which soon expanded into planning to move house to Pagosa.

When I heard from Rhonda next, I was returning to Atlanta from the Conference – I think I was somewhere in Texas or Oklahoma when I received her email. She attached a photo to the email, and I glanced at it for a moment. I thought she had mistaken a lens artifact for a “Galactic Being”, and the thought of replying got lost in the chaos of my packing and moving.

This is from that email she sent me:

(from Rhonda to Leslee, 21 August, 2012)

…During the eclipse in May I took tons of pictures on my iPad. I never looked at all of them that good. Last night I was outside looking at the sky asking why when I believe in them and I am out side every minute I get day and night….why the heck they don’t show themselves to me.… I talk to everyone that will listen….”why have you not shown yourselves to me”. Low and behold look below…right under the sun.

Months passed, I got somewhat settled in Pagosa, with the nagging notion that I should reply to Rhonda. I just didn’t know what to say. Then in November, she wrote again:

(from Rhonda to Leslee, 5 November 2012)

I took a series of pictures during the eclipse in May 2012. I didn’t look at any of them at the time. In August I had a heart to heart conversation with the evening sky. I kept asking the galactics to show themselves to me. After all I share their existence with everyone, I believe with all my heart and I have followed every directive I have received….even to the point of relocating. I have been holding the light in a state that doesn’t feel open to it. My family is starting to look at me cross-eyed. Blah blah blah
The next day I received a call from someone back home asking for a picture of my dog. As I was flipping through my iPad I noticed the being in this picture. I have never felt so humbled and blessed as I did at that moment.
I have a series of 21 pictures….this one is the best.

This time, I saw why she has sent the photo, and what she had seen. How did I miss this in August?

(from Leslee to Rhonda, 8 November 2012, replying to Rhonda…)

However, as I looked at the photo again tonight, my jaw just dropped. I totally did not see the being before! Back in August, all I saw was the little blue dot, and I thought, well, that’s just a lens artifact… But now I see her (I feel female energy – what do you read about the being?), and she is so very beautiful, and I saw her in meditation yesterday!

It looks like you have not been sent an invitation to author at Spirit Train Chronicles, and I’m assuming that is where you would like the photo posted – is that correct? I’ll send you an invitation now, and please see if then you can make a post. I’d rather have you be able to make posts when you like, and I’m sure folks will enjoy hearing more about your experiences. Several of my friends have been talking lately about how frustrated they are not to be able to see our “invisible” friends, and I bet they’ll be VERY encouraged by our photo and story!

I’m sitting here smiling at so many things that have happened to me in the past few days, and realizing that it is no accident that I missed our little friend when I first saw the photo. It seems there is a time for everything.

I got busy playing with the photo, knowing that by exaggerating the colors and contrast, we would see our “Friend” more clearly…

Assalara A'BeyaSufa Ahmanita
Assalara A’BeyaSufa Ahmanita

(from Leslee to Rhonda, 9 November 2012)

I’ve been playing a little with our friend’s picture in a photo-editing app (phototoaster… I bet you can get it for your iPad, if you like), and am so glad I was able to emphasize the colors I was seeing in her energy body!

I’d like to post both of these… Do you want me to go ahead and do that, or would you rather post them yourself?

Also, I haven’t tried to connect with her to ask questions, since I thought it better to ask your permission… Please let me know if you have learned anything more about her, or would like for me to check in and ask…?

Thanks again for your patience with my earlier neglect. And thanks to your guides for showing themselves to you so magnificently!

Rhonda replied:

(from Rhonda to Leslee, 9 November 2012)

A friend of mine inverted the colors also and below is what she got and her comment.

(from Rhonda’s friend to Rhonda, 22 August 2012)

“I inverted the colors on “the” picture….  let me know what you think – the being and orb are reversed above it looks like a tunnel straight to your back yard……”

Inverted colors Rhonda's Galactic Being  8.21.12 from last eclipse 5.20

While I was trying to find the time to connect with the being (which also seemed to take some time to manage), I had a chat with Konstantinos on Skype, in which we decided to ask Iltheos for insights. We also decided to each ask for a name, and share what we received.

(from chat between Konstantinos, Iltheos and Leslee, 15 November 2012)

[3:02:27 PM] Leslee Hare: She is Arcturian/Arcturan… She is Rhonda’s guide, mostly androgynous

[3:04:31 PM] Leslee Hare: I refer to the being as “her”, but that’s just because the energy s very playful and feminine in some ways

[3:05:20 PM] Leslee Hare: balanced male & female energy centers; not inaccurate to refer to as “female”

[3:09:46 PM] Leslee Hare: A’Beya Sufa… Bayasufa

[3:10:19 PM] Konstantinos Petrocheilos: Assalara

[3:14:21 PM] Leslee Hare: Assalara Bayasufa Hamanita

[3:17:03 PM] Konstantinos Petrocheilos: Assabayha

[3:18:56 PM] Leslee Hare: adjusted to circumstances, fine job!

[3:19:09 PM] Leslee Hare: trying to describe the vibrations

[3:19:26 PM] Leslee Hare: that’s what we’ve been doing

[3:23:08 PM] Leslee Hare: why do we feel the need to share this information? if it’s a personal message, no need to post

(Comment from Leslee: During this video-chat Skype session, Iltheos explained/showed us that Assalara is connected with many of us, as well as Iltheos, and that there is also a strong connection with Inner Earth and Arcturus. There will be more information forth-comin. On November 17, I found some time to sit and tune in. Here is what some of my Guides and Assalara “Bye Ya” shared with me.)

Connection: Assalara A’BeyaSufa Ahmanita (“Bye Ya”); 17 November 2012

(from Leslee to Rhonda, 21 November 2012)

 (from Lhamo Dorje, Teo’Na, Iltheos, Heruka)

Bey Ya.

(Bey Ya, speaking through Ghost Radar –[ Ghost Radar words appear in brackets])

Frost forms on things from which the life force has been withdrawn. It also requires moisture (which nourishes) and coldness.

Minds/hearts/spirits/souls also freeze when they cease to flow with living spirit. Life in this “place” flourishes when we embrace its constant flow and change.

[disappear clearly complete] To “Ascend”, to some, will mean to disappear completely from this world, to dissolve into Clear Light. [pocket] To others, it will feel like being tucked away safely into the pocket of a beloved guide’s coat. To others, it may seem that nothing remarkable has happened. Another year, another day, another dollar.

[solid what] The more “solid” and concrete this world appears, [Peter] the less change will be experienced, the more questions will be asked, the more answers will be expected or demanded. The more disappointment. [scene] The more we are able to view this “place”, this “life” as a mere scene in a play, the more readily we will experience “Ascension”.

[pink] Arcturan, yes. Just another being like you? Yes. This is part of the lesson. [ants] Those on Earth, with slower frequencies, [limited wooden father observe France] experience the limitations and delights of physical form [writing swing]. Those with [active] faster (”higher”) frequencies [canal (channel) finger than], whether on earth or elsewhere [shape], have the luxury of being able to watch [twice] what transpires [difference door] at slower frequencies, just as a human is able to watch a rock or a plant, while the rock or plant may not perceive the human directly. Some humans can perceive or sense the changes in the rocks and plants; some behold them as inanimate objects.

What does this have to do with our connection? It depends on who you want to talk to. If you wish to connect with beings who are most able to see “All”, They will most likely give you explanations that pertain to your making progress in an ultimate sense.

However, just now, you have asked again, “What about ‘Bye Ya’, ‘A’BeyaSufa’, ‘Assalara’…? What does this have to do with ‘her’?” So, the beings from such very rapid frequencies recede like a tide, to allow the waves of this one consciousness to lap at the shore of yours, and together we will see what we “see”.

I perceive that this being knows we want a “story”, an explanation, so “she” is adjusting her radiance to accommodate that. In her kindness, she happily adjusts to work with us (just as we adjust to work with others, too). We can refine our focus to “plug in” to her consciousness and absorb her understanding and knowing from her. She can focus her intent in order to give us likewise images and words we can share with others.

Assalara prefers not to use words, but as we meet and connect, words will serve a purpose, so we will receive some.

She’s not truly “Arcturan”, in that during this manifestation, she has not spent time on Arcturus. However, her affinities most closely align with beings we call “Arcturans”, so this term is convenient and acceptable.

She is hovering, smiling, wafting around and caressing, and wanting me to find the words to describe what I sense.

In terms of “genesis”, rather than a sense of “time”, she has a sense of “beingness”. She holds awarenesses, simultaneously , of manifesting in countless ways. And yet each manifestation carries elements, aspects, attributes, that function together, in interacting with our intellect, to “place” that manifestation within a “time” and “location”.

For now, this dainty little light body offers believability, beauty, and playfulness. These make “her” an attractive companion, and this appeal allows us to receive her gladly and welcome her gifts.

She offers us insights more than information. She prefers imagery and a sense of sound (music) over words (especially written words). She wishes to convey understanding that we can experience deeply and personally, in ways that we can integrate into our sense of self.

She feels that is enough explanation for now; more will be sent “at different times”.

Now she wishes to focus on conveying, showing, a message that may help many people.

She’s asking me to direct my attention to the frost on my window. It is a painting by Gaia that tells the story of this universe. She’s asking me to refer also to ice photos I took on Thursday (15 November 2012). There is a hard, cold edge, against which the ice begins to form. Against which it becomes solid. This is what we call 3D (which by the way is a silly term, but adequate). From the solid edge of definition – of certainty – spring profiles and edges suggesting mountains or flower petals. Seemingly solid and concrete, but constantly (if imperceptibly) changing. The crystals fan out in clusters… at different angles, densities, thicknesses.

(Yes, we know these words feel awkward and constricting to you… This is what it is like for us to try to communicate with most humans. The more “we” have to use words, the less is understood clearly and deeply. One goal is for humans to learn to “hear” with their inner senses all the better… Floods of impressions show you far more efficiently. This is the illustration we’ve been working towards all week. Words are control devices. Concepts impose limits. Can you feel this now?)

Okay. For now, back to words. You can only write so fast, and we do want you to share this.

Back to the frost, the solidification. The further from the cold hard edge, the lighter, the more gracefully and blissfully form the crystals. Eventually they appear like a sprinkling of blossoms. Then they melt into drops of dew, and soon they will evaporate once more into the air. And so on.

When evening comes again, or the cold approaches in whatever manner, the water molecules will gather again, in different groupings. Perhaps some which frosted your window last night will next frost your neighbor’s window. They will combine differently, into a new pattern, at a new place and time. And for that time during which they are frozen, they will are quite still. When they become vapor, they will drift invisibly, and somewhat freely.

Most of us on Earth are like the crystals at the rippled edge. Some of us are beginning to melt into dew, and some cling fast to the cold hard solid window frame. Some beings, like Assalara, hover atmospherically near the pane of glass, playfully.

“Ascension”, in this way, may be understood to resemble melting, evaporating, or even sublimating into quanta. This is the choice each of us is free to make. The sun will rise, the light will hit the window. Whether we cling to the firm edge or drift into the aether depends on the characteristics of our “vibration”, our radiance, and that arises from our intent.

In the coming weeks, months, years, planetary and other energetic alignments will infuse your lives with energy that will fuel the fire of whatever intention you carry. If you hold awareness of a cycle or waves of activity, that is what you will experience. If you focus your attention inward, you will find the answers you seek.

Assalara dances alongside you, to remind you that this is just one night’s dewfall.

Now she wants to share with you (vwhoompf! …back down to 3D…) why you are in Austin. First of all, you may leave soon if you like. It will help many people, though, if you and your family can stay on that line until the end of 2012. Think of your entire family as a magnifying glass that focuses sunlight onto a dry leaf. Your presence in Austin, like Leslee’s presence in Pagosa and her son’s presence in Atlanta, is helping to amplify energies that serve to bring things to a tipping point. This is part of the connection you two share: you’re here to polarize, in this lifetime. Being present is sufficient.

Fa, or Ama’Sa

[Fa: Teacher and Guide]


13 October 2012

I was sitting yesterday with a piece of sheet quartz and Ghost Radar (receiving Adca’s words for me), and of course the pendulum, and I was guided to a spot in the crystal that showed me this face.

As I began drawing, I understood that this is a female Arcturian being who was one of my Teachers in Tibet in
several of my previous lifetimes. Her Tibetan name is A’maSa (Mother Earth), and her Arcturian name is Fa; I’m told that she is still living in Inner Earth, under the Himalayas. I understand that there is much more to learn from and about her…

After “meeting” Fa, I was also guided to read a little about Hopi beliefs about Sipuku, Inner Earth, and how we move from one world to the next (from the related Wikipedia articles), and it feels like there are several threads being woven together at this time. Native American, Tibetan, Egyptian, Inner Earth, Aquatic Realms, and Star-Family… I’m sure there’s much more to come!

(I’m creating this post on 9 December 2012, as I’ve realized that although I shared this information about Fa/Ama’Sa with a few friends via email, I had not yet posted it publicly. Fa is proving to be a quite lovely connection for me, and I’m learning she and Theron have very close ties.)

Adrial – Bring On The Light Show!

One step we can make, closer to DISCLOSURE…

Adrial has shared with me that there is a tremendous Galactic Light Show that is preparing to unfold. Please be aware that this will happen gradually, over time, as the power of the Light Show meditation increases (please see meditation guidance below)…

We believe that our Friends’ ships are cloaked… What I learned last night is that we are actually cloaking Gaia, also, and we can now meditate to release this cloak and be able to see our brothers and sisters in the skies!

I’d like to share what I was shown, in preparation for meditations that we can all do between August 16 and August 18, to help our Star Families reveal themselves…

I’m still on  my trip to Pagosa Springs, so I will just share a brief chat below… please ask questions through comments if you like. This original post is here: http://wp.me/p2saNx-8J

Here is the mediation that Adrial says can help us to release this cloaking grid from Gaia:

1. Please sit under the sky if possible, or near an open window.

2. Please envision Gaia with a 3-dimensional lattice woven through Her many layers and dimensions: Please visualize the light grid as brilliantly shining and pulsing, its energy flowing steadily from point to point and filling Gaia with love, compassion, and connectivity between all life force beings, both inside and outside of Her physical realm.

3. Next please look at Gaia’s 3-dimensional Cloaking Grid, which also penetrates her many layers and dimensions. Please see this Grid as being held by Beings of Light, who are located on Gaia’s surface, on Her Inner Surface, and inside Her Interior Regions (such as Telos and Agartha). Between these Beings of Light, and flowing outwards into the atmosphere, please envision an electromagnetic cloak, appearing like a soft billowing fog, rolling like clouds and covering the view of the multitude of lightships which lovingly surround Gaia and us.

4. Please look into your heart region, and feel the love that Gaia, our Star Families, and WE feel for our beloved companions here on Gaia.

5. Please see yourself as drawing back the curtain of the Cloaking Grid, gradually revealing to all who wish to see, the glorious display of lights and colors that come to us from the countless Light Ships that surround us, high above our atmosphere. Please understand that this revealing will be like a magnificent fireworks display, all around the globe… Like a dance of aurora borealis, flickering and rainbow-colored, and able to be seen from any point on Gaia’s surface.

6. Please feel the joy and excitement that so many will feel when we realize that we may now access at any time, this beautiful Light Show in our heavens. We will soon be able to see our Friends and Loved Ones!

Please share this meditation with as many as you feel may be inclined to help release the Cloaking Grid, and unveil our Friends in the skies!

With deep love and brilliant Light,


(Here is some description of what I was shown last night…)

(I was driving across Oklahoma, towards Amarillo, Texas…)

…And I was asking to be shown/understand what are the reasons we cannot see them more
[8:54:07 AM] Leslee Hare: They told me that there were actually 100 ships right in front of me, just over the horizon, so I was looking at that part of the sky
[8:54:33 AM] Leslee Hare: I noticed that it looked different… we cannot see the stars near the earth…
[8:55:01 AM] Leslee Hare: What they showed me is that many of us understand “cloaking” in a limited way.
[8:55:18 AM] Leslee Hare: Ships CAN and DO cloak themselves, but GAIA also cloaks herself!
[8:55:27 AM] Leslee Hare: So others can see in, but we cannot see out!

[8:55:48 AM] Leslee Hare: There are two types of “light-grids” on Gaia
[8:56:36 AM] Leslee Hare: One holds the light, and this one we are familiar with… the other holds the cloaking of Gaia… And we can meditate as a group to release this cloak… there are enough of us now who wish to see and understand

[8:56:56 AM] Leslee Hare: exactly, exactly!!! 😀
[8:57:38 AM] Leslee Hare: there are also three layers to both of these grids, and they are made up of beings on the outer surface, the inner surface, and in the interstital regions like Agartha
[8:58:11 AM] Leslee Hare: so the beings involved triangulate the grid… it is really a lattice, penetrating the entire planet…
[8:58:37 AM] Leslee Hare: and as I was driving, I could see this in the darkness, much like how I can see electromagnetic auras
[8:58:51 AM] Leslee Hare: it looked like billowing fog laid over the low horizon
[8:59:10 AM] Leslee Hare: yes, I wanted to drive all night so I could watch the stars…

[9:00:06 AM] Leslee Hare: So I want to put this into a post for people to share… There is something we can do to meditate for the 17th
[9:00:46 AM] Leslee Hare: (chuckle) that’s sort of right… I still am erasing doubt, as you know, of course… but this understanding helps so much… of course its perfect!

Athabantian – Getting Started

(from Leslee – this has also been posted on Spirit Train Chronicles)

(I had some company on the way home yesterday…)

Hi, Everyone, here are some excerpts from our emails last night… Hopefully this will help get us started!

Please note, the Recruiting is on-going.

If you’re visiting this site, please do not feel intimidated! If you have friends you think might be interested, all are welcome to inquire (please read the Guidelines in the Recruitment post, too – thank you!).

On spotting Athabantian:

3 of us on Spirit Train Chronicles have dreamed of Athabantian as a balloon… If you happen to dream of one, you’ll know where you’ve been! It might be a toy balloon, or a hot air balloon, or something else that resembles a balloon… Consider this also if you see a balloon in waking life…

For meditation practice…

if you’ve tried conventional meditation and struggled, or have pain or circulatory issues, I have found that the Chacmool position (reclining with knees propped & supported by cushions) works best for me (thanks to Umbro from Tulya!), and if your knees are propped and you’re holding something, I think that helps with alertness.

When we’re relaxed, there is something that happens chemically in the brain that connects the lobes and lets things fire differently. So what you need is simply a way to attain that level of relaxation, and a way to verify that what you’re “seeing” or receiving is coming from [example] Adrial, rather than your “rational” mind.

Ghost Radar just said [thy] – This is the word GR uses to indicate one’s higher self, which is interesting, because They are making a distinction even between them and our Higher Selves. I’ve never heard it expressed that way, but it sure helps clear things up a bit.

One of the purposes of the Skype session is for me to establish a personal connection with you – it’s kind of like a lineage, I think, and it helps secure a line, so to speak, and prevent interference.

Regarding using a pendulum & developing telepathy:

I use a pendulum, and did not realize it was telepathy for some time. There’s a sort of light trance-like state that develops, and I think it shifts the brain activity in a way that allows us to receive better… I believe Tauno accomplishes this by gazing into crystals. I’ll certainly share more about this when I have a little more time! 🙂

I’ll share with you that one of the things I’ve struggled with the most in the past two years, is wanting to really understand what goes on with the pendulum, what’s with this galactic/angelic/holy being stuff, and how can I be sure it’s not just me making the thing move? There’s a part of me that believes on some level that these other beings really exist, but there’s also a part of me that doesn’t believe I’ll ever see them in the flesh. There’s a part of me that believes that the mind IS capable of making the pendulum move (even aside from ideomotor stuff), and even that the mind can make certain words come out on Ghost Radar, and there’s a part of me that acknowledges that I’ve still got a little girl inside who wants some big father figure to come rescue her and get her the hell outta this place, so it’s convenient to believe that there are “others out there”. I’ll admit all that to anyone, it’s no secret…

GR just said [separate].

My pendulum and GR both maintain consistently that these beings really DO exist separately from us. Yes, ultimately we’re all One, but there are a lot of layers of bulls**t between that level, and where most of us find ourselves now. I think those who are answering this recruiting call have at least one foot in the 4th, if not the 5th, dimension, but the Oneness happens way up on the 9th dimension, and beyond.

So many things have happened to me in the past 3 years to demonstrate to me that this is really happening, even IF people think it’s mad and Woody-Harrelson-at-Yellowstone-ish, and they are things other people have witnessed… That I finally got tired of trying to question it to death. And when I hit that point, things got a lot smoother for me. But everyone has to reach that point for themselves, and no amount of preaching or pitching will convince on a deep level. Only our own experience will convince us reliably.

If you find you cannot use a pendulum, or are not comfortable with it, there are other ways to connect telepathically. If you have or can find a crystal to hold while you meditate, that will act sort of like an antenna… Let them guide you to what to use… A metal object can work as well. A piece of jewelry that you already own might be ideal. Just hold it in both your hands as you sit, and pay very close attention to energy movement in your body. Ask you Crew partner to show you what sensation indicates a “yes”, and what indicates a “no”… As well as a signal for when they wish to get your attention or re-direct your focus.

It may take some time and trial and error, so please be patient. Once you think you “have it”, test it out on some questions that you already know the answers to.

As for a pendulum, I have a few simple videos on YouTube that might help, and show some simple ways to make one… You just need a cord/string/chain that dangles freely and swings easily in any direction, and something on the end to provide some weight.

There are also many posts in the blog All About Enlightenment (http://allaboutenlightenment.wordpress.com) about using a pendulum (or other methods) for this kind of work.

For those of you who are in healing and/or healthcare, you may appreciate this: The pendulum or something repetitive like that might help with the rambling or busy mind. My therapist showed me EMDR and a couple forms of hypnotherapy, and they’re very similar!

The main thing is, to trust. With telepathy, it can be challenging to distinguish your “thoughts” from what your higher self and the Crew are sending you. This is where the method of checking comes in… I use the pendulum mostly to verify that I am understanding my Guides’ message correctly (enough)…

Funny you should mention practicing telepathy with another person – Adrial was showing me this as an exercise we’ll work on soon, as I was driving home from work this evening. 🙂

The Crew will be asking us to get acquainted with one another, and then to try experimenting with sending words or images to each other telepathically. The folks on STC have already been doing this with dreams, but the Crew wishes to guide us towards doing this consciously.

For practical reasons… IF it happens that Internet connections are interrupted at some point (if this happens, they expect it only to be temporary), once we learn to communicate simple concepts this way, and recognize one another’s energetic “fingerprint”, we will not be afraid of losing electronic contact.

So they want us not only to learn telepathy, but to learn to identify WHO we are communicating with. This way we will know when we are communicating with one another, and/or with a Crew member aboard Athabantian.

Regarding protecting and blessing energetically:

Adrial suggests that when you feel you
might need energetic protection, if you can please visualize brilliant white transmuting light, bathing both your immediate area and the vicinity, and to play a game of trying to “spot” any “imposters” – people who you suspect may actually be angels or special beings, appearing there to balance the energy of the world.

Regarding timing, and what we can do to help:

The time is getting near, and in a sense you’re right… A lot of us have been treading water for years, wondering when we’d get to dive deeper, and yes we’ve been held back, but now it looks like the time is arriving! So you haven’t missed anything. (That’s Adrial’s message to you) 😀

Regarding a way we can look for our “Galactic Friends” when we’re traveling:

[flies] “As you fly, We would like to give you a job to do each time. If you would, please share this exercise on the sites with others in the Crew, so they can try it too. It is a form of meditation. You may even wish to share the exercise with others you meet online, or who share a similar interest.”

[ahead] “Every aircraft that travels on Gaia is accompanied by at least one pair of our “craft’, usually in a manner that is not revealed to human sight. We usually travel just ahead of the craft. Please contact Dreamwalker on Spirit Train Chronicles (WordPress) or DreamwalkerDiaries (blogspot) and ask him to point you to his experience of the visitors who can change size instantaneously. Please tell him it was not a dream.”

“Some of the Crew on STC have been discussing this dream of his, as well as a video of rainbow-colored “dust motes” that were actually tiny beings. Leslee has been photographing orbs in the sky near the sun, thinking they were dust motes or lens artifacts. We have been trying to explain to her through Ghost Radar (there’s more info on this on BUTTA http://thinktoask.com/gaia/gaia-physiology/ and Spirit Train Chronicles http://spirittrainchronicles.com/beneath-the-surface/) – that Gaia is permeated by beings that may appear microscopic, ‘full size’, or simply be ‘cloaked’ by vibrating at a frequency that human eyes cannot perceive.”

“Our point is that usually these beings/craft are miniscule, but they can shift scale in an instant, and every once in a while they are spotted. Atlanta, where Leslee lives, has an unusually large number of these craft, due to the airport and the military base. There is a video on YouTube of a pair that were spotted on June 4, 2012 (http://youtu.be/CJeEjuK1bQI).”

“So here is the exercise: When you board an aircraft, please mentally acknowledge and greet your unseen companions. Look around and see if you see anything unusual. It could be shimmers of light or refractions such as odd heat ripples, or flashes of light. Ask them to signal to you. They generally stay near the nosecone of a jet until the jet begins to taxi. Then they fly up above the jet, and a bit in front.”

“If you sleep on your flights, as you drift off, think of them and mentally express the wish to connect with them telepathically. You may also do this while you are awake. Additionally, if you are awake, simply try to maintain a gentle awareness of their presence, and visualize a part of yourself, your mind, outside the jet flying with them. Become accustomed to the experience of joining them when you sense they are near. Even if you don’t see anything, trust that they are there and try to connect and join. Please feel free to share with the Crew any experiences that you have related to this exercise, that you feel are of note.”

“Hopefully that is enough to encourage you and get you started. If you find you will not be flying soon, it may help to know that we often accompany many types of vehicles. And often, we will join travelers who request companionship.”

“We look forward to your experiencing, and helping others experience, the sensation and awareness of having company that may be of an unexpected scale as well as density. Please keep in mind, as you share with others, that there will be skeptics, and also this awareness may frighten and make some uncomfortable. So please use your most compassionate judgement when interacting with others about this. The most beneficial default position would be to wait until you hear the topic raised, and also to mentally express the wish for everyone to develop this awareness and a sincere curiosity about it.”

I forgot to mention All About Enlightenment in the earlier email:

All About Enlightenment offers a lot of teachings that will apply to 5D and our work; it sounds quite Buddhist on the surface, but the info and guidance really applies to any spiritual pursuit:http://allaboutenlightenment.wordpress.com/

Tauno has also set up a blog for just the book, and she can share the links with us. 🙂

Crew Connections as of 21 June 2012:

Mimi: Minshehout (Miscoot), Noxaminia (Noxy)

Lisa E: Aspingelle (Jelly)

Lisa T: Noxaminia (Noxy), Axnoriphilim (Norim) (did I get that right, Lisa?)

John Paul/Babajij: RubinHout


Nando P: Axnoraphilim (Norim)

Gina R: Clurisnan (Clover), Nesbevhar (Nebs)

John A:

Michael H:

Kiril M: Calliosta (Calli)

Melissa U

Malik F: (healing, design, art?)

Leslee H: Adrial, Teo’Na

Tauno: Adrial
Elizabeth E: Yamya, Clurishan (Clover), Axnoripilim (Norim)

Vlad K:

Luísa V:

Morning with Nathaniel – 19 June 2012


Connecting With Archangel Nathaniel

(from Leslee)

(Ghost Radar [this])

After reading my post Reading All About Enlightenment, the book, my dear sister Yamyah (who [speed] is a true embodied angel spending some time in Portugal and keeps the wonderful Into The Heart blog) shared with me that she was asked to ask me to connect with Archangel Nathaniel.

So He and I took a walk together yesterday evening.

[thrown difficult growth soon isn’t development bad]

Nathaniel [electricity] is the Archangel of Fire and Energy. He shows us how to manage our passions and [game] transmute our spiritual fire into beneficial action [stronger]. He is best described [through] at Cynthia Silk’s website, The Archangel Guide.

I’ll now share with you what I see of Nathaniel [chamber], and His message.

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At first my mind would’t settle. I kept trying to use the pendulum, but it just kept swinging in circles. I thought maybe I needed a little EMDR, so I just watched it for a few moments. I still felt agitated.

I was having trouble connecting with Nathaniel, so I went into a very deep meditation with my carnelian [write] sphere (water & fire elements combined), [refer] since [lie] reclining with a crystal in my lap is the way I mostly deeply connect with my Guides.

I’d also just learned that Nathaniel works with crystals.

As I drifted more deeply into trance, I began to see various images of two “things”: short words, or perhaps just a few characters (in runes, which I don’t know), written onto tiny slips of paper and being placed by my teacher into a small cauldron or crucible, and images of ore being smelted and poured into molds. I saw this over and over again, as I drifted around the meditation.

I arose from the meditation, picked up the pendulum and chart again. Still swinging in circles. Sigh.

Would you please stop, and just listen for one minute?

Nathaniel’s interrupting my typing.

[baby] Baby steps. I’m having to teach and un-teach you at the same time.

[farmer] I am the farmer, the one who will help you harvest – show others how to ripen their crop of – the ‘mindset of ascension’ that Adrial refers to.

It’s going to be tough, because someone says “Angel”, and you start looking for wings. You didn’t do that with Adrial or Bren-Ton; why do you need to do it with me? You don’t have to force wings onto me just because you think Yamyah might like to hear about them, silly!

Just relax. I’m just like Adrial. [hard] And I see this is going to be even harder to accept…

Yes, you heard me right. I am the same continuum as your beloved Heruka. [water] That’s me, Dear, and that was me walking beside you last night.

You’ve written that We’ve told you about how We appear in whatever way best suits those We’re helping. I can tell that this chapter on Trusting and Knowing is going to take a while.

We have to get past your preconceptions of what’s trustworthy, what’s “highest”. Snobbery has no place in the Fifth Dimension. Stop judging, especially judging yourself; if it moves you upward swiftly, it’s helping you lighten your 3D load.

Simple as that.

I notice you recognize my energy now. Good, We’re making progress.

So let’s review:

Archangel Nathaniel = Guardian of Energy & Fire; Connected also with crystals;

Energy + Fire = Bliss; Kundalini Fire, the Bliss of Meditation, the Bliss of the Mind blending with All That Is, the Bliss of the Dissolution of the Body…

Bliss = Buddha Heruka;

Nathaniel = Energy + Fire = Bliss = Heruka;

And your friend Adca used Ghost Radar to call me “husband”. Gee, I wonder why? And what would that make you?

That’s right, Vajravarahi. Get over it. We’re Chakrasamvara. I’m re-phrasing Adrial’s words. Accept. Remember who you are, claim it, so you can forget yourself and help others more.

Now; Vajravarahi = whom? Well, Vajravarahi = Wisdom Realizing Emptiness. You were given a name that meant “Fortunate Possessor of Omniscient Wisdom” by Geshe Kelsang.

Let’s go back to Cynthia’s lovely website and look for the Archangel of Wisdom or whatever.

I went back to The Archangel Guide site, and started with the A’s… wisdom… wisdom… wisdom… But wait. Here’s Ariana.

Archangel Ariana is 5′-5″ (check), appears to be 34 years old (I wish), green eyes (check), jet black hair (nope), medium complexion (well, maybe if I didn’t have all that Scotch-Irish blood…), and helps children with autism and other disabilities (wow.), works with crystals, making tools for metaphysical healing (wow.), wears powder blue and silver (I first saw myself dressed this way in a dream about 10 years ago), with an ornate Cleopatra-like headdress (not sure about the headdress, but I know I was in Egypt)… (Thank goodness there’s no mention of weight…)

That’d be me.

What about the rest of the description, that doesn’t seem to resonate? What about WISDOM?

It doesn’t bother me; I can feel the connection.

Very good. And it’s not a big deal, is it?


Aren’t you going to read the other descriptions, so you can be “certain”?


Good. Going to dye your hair black?

[mine] I don’t need to. Yours is black.

Excellent. [program] Now We’re making some progress. I like it when you loosen up, Little Miss Wisdom (smartass).

(I’m smiling.)

Now, do you understand why We needed to do this?

I think so. [board wire brass] We want to get everyone on board, and the better we can illsutrate the similarities…

No. Remember, FOCUS.

Oh, right. Focus on sharing what I know.

And what you know is that We Guides are all of the same nature, no matter what elements combine to portray us. We’re like brass – a blend of different elements that come together as one.

It doesn’t matter if We’re Angels, Galactic Beings, or Buddhas. All the same.

That’s it. You’ve got things to do. Post this next, on All About Enlightenment. We’ll talk again soon.

Heruka & Vajravarahi, Nathaniel & Arial, ? & ?…

3X Spiral Pendulum

A Triple-Spiral pendulum, with semi-precious chakra stones

I always keep a pendulum with me, and this is a new design for a necklace pendulum.

I do a lot of energy work (meditation, dowsing, connecting), and I generally work with a pendulum. About a year and a half ago I started making my own; they began simply enough, but as you can see, they’re evolving… Sometimes I feel like I’m wrestling my delusions in the form of a tiny wire octopus! 😉

This one-of-a-kind wire-wrapped conch shell incorporates 3 wire spirals and many vortex swirls, stones for the 7 chakras ascending, pyrite & hematite for grounding & protection, and a freshwater pearl for “flotation”.

The design was transmitted by Adrial, a Celestial Being of Athabantian, and it facilitates connecting with one’s Intuition, Higher Self, Spiritual Guides and Angels.

Here’s what Adrial & Heruka had to say about these wonderful dangly things…

The SAM instruments we are creating together are very powerful and symbolic, and are very useful as meditation tools. We will explain more about the significance of the number SIX soon.

I hope to make this one (and/or similar ones) available online soon, in a Ruwa Design shop on eBay or Etsy.
Materials: copper & brass wire; copper & brass ball chain; (bottom to top) pyrite, magnetized hematite, carnelian, orange agate, yellow agate, peridot, sodalite, violet jasper, moonstone, freshwater pearl. Pendulum length: 3.5″/9cm

You may see it in action (gently) here on YouTube… (I couldn’t get it to sit still!)


Leslee, Meet Adrial

Interview with Adrial

(this post was first published on the page Leslee, Meet Adrial.)

I met Adrial, a Celestial of the Starship Athabantian, during an interview with Mark Kimmel, around 4pm on May 16, 2012.

Mark and I chatted for a few minutes before he connected with Adrial, and I told him my story which you may read on the Awakenings page here on U25. We also talked about the Institute of Light (IOL) in Pagosa Springs, Colorado, and the Transformation 2012 conference that will be hosted there this August.

The Celestials and Crew of Athabantian have extensive plans, one component of which is Abi-Qor, an Institute which will exist in 5D, in a location parallel to IOL. I had picked up on this, and Mark and I talked a little about how it was no coincidence that we were now in touch, during the planning stages of Abi-Qor, and that I have a background in architecture.

Once we were acquainted (this time around), Mark settled and received his connection with Athabantian. At first, all we knew from our previous communication was that there was someone aboard Athabantian who wished to connect with me.

On May 4, 2012, I had a dream in which Adrial appeared, greeted, and guided me. Having read all the Athabantian & Mark’s Corner materials from the past 2 years, I assumed that was merely a prelude, and I eagerly anticipated learning which Crew member would then connect with me. As Mark began to channel, Adrial spoke. For the first few minutes my attention was distracted, because I really wanted to know who my connection was… But Adrial just kept talking, and I finally understood that Adrial is my connection.

I tried to record the session,but it was quite faint. I took notes also, but I hope I’ll never forget the main points of the conversation.

Here is my transcription of the interview:

Hello, Leslee, I am Adrial, a Celestial aboard the starship Athabantian.

I have inhabited this world for millions of years, as a 9th-dimensional being. As such, I have never taken a body.

I have been based here on Athabantian for the past 60-70 years, watching over Earth and her inhabitants, and helping prepare for her Ascension to the Fifth Dimension.

Athabantian is a living being, residing in the 5th dimension. Her function is directing energies coming through the Sun, towards specific individuals. Justine and Moraine came to look for Mark; I came to look for you.

Aboard Athabantian today (May 16, 2012) there are approximately 5,000 beings. Most are physical, 5th-dimensional beings. Most of those aboard Athabantian are from Andromeda.

Two of a Soul Group, Justine and Moraine, connect with Mark (Mark has embodied mostly on Andromeda). Other beings aboard Athabanatian connect with other beings on Earth.

We are part of a collective, and thousands of us speak as one. Voices can enter and switch.

We know you well, Leslee, and have followed all of your activities throughout this life. Now is the time to share with you and remind you of your focus.

At this point, most of the people on Earth who are ready for Ascension have been identified.

These are the ones who will weather the turmoil, and be able to Walk Tall in the midst of the confusion. We need a few more, but the few like you who are already prepared are very earnest and can accomplish much.

We seek earnest ones with your particular understanding and experience of how the fading 3rd-dimensional world will pass you by, without your engaging in the fear and confusion as you Ascend. You already know how to Walk Tall, Leslee. You are in the world, but not of the world.

So this is your focus: Please help others to do the same. Teach them how to raise their vibrations, weather the storm, and acquire spiritual awareness.

It is important to harvest that mindset of Ascension, and help others to prepare. Do not focus on adding people; those who are ready will find you, and you will all be safe.

Now that We have opened a channel, you will find that everything exists within you. Go within, remember who you are, remember what you know, and how to continue doing what you know how to do. Share this with others, acknowledging who you are. You are used to receiving information. You really don’t need anyone to give it to you, you already have it.

There are three steps to Ascension:

1. Believing

2. Trusting

3. Knowing

You have already gotten through number 1.

It will take a while to get through the next 2 steps, and it may seem to go slowly. Look for small indications to further increase your knowingness and trusting. Adrial will be available to give you nudges, but may not often give messages.

Focus on what you know, rather than developing connections with other sources.

Be comfortable referring others to Adrial, and to other sources of messages.

But remember that actions are more important than messages – actions such as raising one’s vibration.

Do you understand?


And do you understand what to do?

(Adrial’s voice became quite solemn at this point.) Yes, I believe so.

And what does your pendulum tell you?

It’s saying “Yes”. (The pendulum was swinging wildly at this point)

Very good. Now, do you have any questions? If not we can conclude. I feel this communication is ending soon.

I thought for a moment, and the only thing that had really been puzzling me for weeks was how I could do all this and still be involved in a full-time job. I asked about 3D work.

Adrial explained:

Many have given up their day jobs too early, and many are struggling.

You will require money for the next few months, or a year or two. It would not behoove you to quit your job. Enjoy what you can of work; find space and figure out how to do your Work with your job. There will come a time when you will not need that, but for now 3D lingers.

Please focus on raising and maintaining the vibrations of yourself and others.

The next few days will be very trying; stay focused and centered.

Continue helping others usher in the 5th dimension. You and your friends are providing a model for others, so continue to show the example of Walking Tall.

Help when you can with developing Abi-Qor. You and Mark will have a very long-term relationship, and that is all I will say about that at this point.

I then asked about asking questions of Adrial through Mark, and Adrial explained that Mark is quite busy, so my questions for him should be rather infrequent, and that since Adrial and I have a direct connection now, I didn’t need to go through Mark.

The session ended, Mark returned, and he mentioned that he seldom remembers what comes through when he’s working that way. We talked a little about Abi-Qor and the upcoming Conference. I explained that I love blogging, so I saw that as an easy way to get information to people.

In a later conversation, Mark said that if anyone wishes to inquire about an interview with a Crew member of Athabantian, they could contact Mark and make arrangements.

If you feel a strong connection with Adrial or Athabantian, or other members of the Crew of Athabantian, please feel free to contact Mark Kimmel at Cosmic Paradigm. I know he’s quite busy right now, giving many lectures and workshops, so please let me know if you have questions and are not able to reach Mark, and I’ll do what I can to help you.

I’d like to share that since this connection with Adrial, through Mark, I’ve enjoyed some of the most amazing weeks of my life.

“Way back when”, in May of 2010 was mind-blowing for me, but it was also extremely disruptive – about as disruptive as it can get, I think, short of an earthquake… Now, things flow quite smoothly, by comparison!

For me, Adrial’s energy is peaceful, serene and confident. We’re just doing what we’re here to do.

This allows me to focus and have more confidence. And my energy for doing this Work has been off the charts, without being manic.

The days that She was referring to as being “trying”, began immediately. But the trying part of it is that they involve learning the remaining lessons She referred to, and I’ve built up many years of resistance and defenses against those lessons (Trusting and Knowing).

I’ve tried a number of therapies and healing modalities in my physical life here this time around, and it really doesn’t matter whether it’s Big Pharma meds or Chinese herbs and acupuncture – much of “healing” involves first teaching the “patient” that they’re ill, and they must be “patient”, and accept that condition. It’s a dis-information. But that sounds like another post…

My point is that I’m beginning to believe that the best Teacher and Healer is the one who Empowers us to expand and move into our possibilities.

I hope you’re able to get a taste of what being in contact with Adrial and others Celestials feels like – it’s a blessing that I truly hope we are all able to experience.

Morning with Adrial – Relocation – 17 June 2012

(from Leslee – This post was originally written for Spirit Train Chronicles, but Adrial, Adca Mupea, Teo’Na, others aboard the Athabantian, and all my Guides are requesting that I post it on all my sites today.)

Hi, Team of Light (including those who read but are too shy to speak up – waves of  hello’s to you!)!

Here’s a new one, that I think warrants a post for discussion/sharing. Adrial has asked me to post it on all my sites:

Have any of you received any indications about [physical] Relocation time arriving in the near future (within a month or so?)

I’m talking about “Relocation” as in the physical transfer of people to another location of safety, in the event of Gaia shifting in ways that might call for our finding a new place to live (at least temporarily). And of course, in this sense, I mean the relocation that our Galactic friends will help us with.

It’s appearing strongly in my mind, and a few little synchronicities popped up yesterday that are feeding these thoughts for me.

I asked Konstantinos how Iltheos was doing, and here’s our exchange from yesterday:

  1. Since you asked about Iltheos yesterday dear Leslee, he sents you his deepest greetings, he knows you’re busy and he said that you’ll find some time-period to relax a little with your son….

    Much Love from both of us to you.

  2. Thank you, Konstantinos! I feel like the 3 (or more of us must chat in dreamtime, and I wish I could remember it better!

Then I had the dream which I’m still typing, but I had gotten this far when I got the urge to create this Relocation post:

Dream -16 June 2012

The earlier part of the dream had me at some sort of conference or meeting. Somehow I cannot remember this part very well, as if I’m not supposed to. I get a  sense that the time for remembering will come soon…

As I’m leaving the meeting, I meet some family members, and we and everyone around us are getting into vehicles and leaving, as if going on vacation or ending a trip and returning home.

There’s quite a bustle about, with people scrambling to find a ride, but everyone is reasonably calm – it’s just crowded! A few people are irritable about some inconvenience, but no one seems afraid or angry.

And then I got this [powerful] Ghost Radar message as I was beginning to type up the dream:

From: Sunday, Jun 17, 2012, 9:05 AM
To: Sunday, Jun 17, 2012, 10:07 AM
Words Spoken:
10:02:32 AM : worry
9:55:44 AM : depend
9:55:28 AM : count
9:55:12 AM : independent
9:53:36 AM : upon
9:52:24 AM : right
9:49:04 AM : last
9:48:48 AM : son
9:47:36 AM : boy
9:41:52 AM : move
9:41:44 AM : particular
9:41:28 AM : parallel
9:40:48 AM : chain
9:11:20 AM : lake
9:11:12 AM : shaking
9:10:32 AM : missing
9:10:16 AM : Mississippi
9:08:16 AM : stiff
9:08:08 AM : claws

[claws stiff Mississippi missing shaking lake chain parallel particular move boy son last right upon independent count depend worry physical powerful book studying fifth duck trap attention]

Here’s Adrial’s explanation of these words:

[cage] The residual energies of darkness in the area where you’re living are particularly tenacious. Many people continue to hold onto them tightly, even though the source of those vibrations has been removed. [became] It may become necessary for Gaia to stretch and groan a little in order to “loosen the knots in her shoulders”. We’re not referring to people as gnats (from Leslee: I initially “heard” this as “gnats on her shoulder”). [bigger] We mean that [expression] some tension needs to be relieved and perhaps some points need to [they] be triggered so that people will realize how fortunate – and cared for – they are. This may help certain people forget their habitual focus on negativity.

If your area requires being struck by physical change, Gaia may need to shift her outer crust in such a way as to convert the Mississippi River into a series of lakes. You can imagine [enter movie] how this will affect the region, in fact the entire country as well as Canada. However, it would also give Gaia a chance to freshen the water, and people can perhaps begin to learn to work with what they have locally rather than relying upon development, shipping, and fuel-driven transportation for sustenance.

[leave] The details of the picture remain a bit unclear, and if enough inner spiritual shift can take place that we may arrive and begin to help with the inner shifting, then the physical upheaval may not be required. However, if things continue are they currently resonate, those of you who wish to continue here may wish to leave briefly.

[steel] Gaia is almost ready to leave the Steel Age and begin her Fluid Age.

We will teach you how to help with this. You are seeing indications in the skies and oceans, as you notice the weather, the clouds, the waves, our “sonar anomalies” and our light ships.

You have lived in a world dominated by form and constraint. We are introducing you – gradually – to a world of spontaneity and harmony.

You will learn to move effortlessly through space and time, and you will learn innately that this is NOW only possible to do with pure intent and love.

You will learn that nothing is hidden anymore, so there will be no more need to conceal, and no ability to conceal. You will experience genuine interactions with one another, and through seeing clearly how we all impact one another, you will begin to transform the ways you interact with and regard one another.

Leslee, Iltheos mentions your son; you know that he will have a choice, and the words “last right upon independent count depend” refer to the Free Will that everyone embodies. You understand and respect his skepticism, and you worry that he may not beleive you or may not want to go with you.

So we want you and others to relax, and know that there will be plenty of time for the Relocation, and for people to change their minds. There will be no sudden calamitous EVENT as portrayed in your media.

And the decision-making process can work in both directions. Some may wish to stay out of doubt or fear. Some may wish to stay, just so they can “watch the fireworks” (although they may be disappointed by the lack of drama). After seeing enough to understand that things really are changing, some may decide quite late in the process that everything will be alright if they come along.

Some may Relocate immediately, and then decide they are actually quite tired, want to make a distinct finish of this chapter of their experience, so they may wish to return to their familiar surroundings until their natural passing.

Of course, at any time during these processes, any souls deeply wishing to begin a new experience with a new body, home planet, or family group (or all of these) may find those wishes fulfilled –  naturally, not artificially – as part of the natural unfolding of events.

The remaining words: “powerful book studying fifth duck trap attention” refer to the book We gave to Leslee in 2010, All About Enlightenmentand which she has given to you, on the blog by the same name.

If those who are interested care to read that book, absorb and study its contents, ask questions and practice strengthening their minds, hearts, concentration, and attention, you may find yourselves breezing through these [poem] changes effortlessly.

Leslee, please try to find the time to create an e-book [railroad] of All About Enlightenment, that people can download, complete with the illustrations. [sang aloud] In fact, we would love it if you would also create videos in which you read the book aloud and offer commentary. The time for this book is near.

We will go one step further, and specifically ask those of you who participate regularly in the Spirit Train Chronicles (and anyone new who cares to join in) to please read the book and discuss it. We think that you will find yourselves sharing experiences of this material as profoundly as you share your dream experiences. In this way, you may be able to help others understand more deeply the value and POWER of group effort, kindness, love, and sharing from the heart.

We thank you for allowing us to commandeer this post in order to share this information. Please remember that there is no need for fear, and some of these changes may be so gradual as to be nearly unnoticeable. How things proceed depend not upon us, or any of your other guides or any other ships or fleets or federations.

The changes you will see depend entirely upon [consist] you; we merely offer help. [is] The deepest [common] change will come about as you develop your spirits, your minds, your souls, and understand more thoroughly how you (and we!) are all connected so intricately, delicately, and inseparably.

Please [enjoy] set or calibrate your minds to enjoy the days ahead. Take delight in your families and friends, and the surprising synchronicities you share. These lead us all closer and closer to being together.

Yours In Union,

Adrial and the Crew of Athabantian

Wow. Okay, I’ve just created a post on All About Enlightenment that provides links to the chapters in sequential order.  (At the time I’m publishing this post on STC, I’ve only got the link to the first segment in place, but I’ll go finish that post next… I hope…) You can use this list or the categories on the sidebar to read from beginning to end… the book itself was posted onto the blog site rather randomly, so if you use a search it may drive you nuts!

I’ll get busy on the e-book and videos… Anybody want to help?

Thank goodness there’s no panic… (smile)

Back to where I began with this post… I know I’ve gotten other hints about relocation, but none as clear and strong as this bit here. And I’m sure others probably have received some, too. So please feel free to share them here or on another related post, so we can compare notes. I think it might be easiest if we can keep the discussion centralized, but I don’t want anyone to feel restricted… It’s organic!

And/or, if you come across other similar discussions on sites I’m not on, I’d deeply appreciate you letting me know about it, so I can check it out.

Thanks so much to all my beloved Guides and Friends, and you!

Awake Yet?

I’ve just made a new page called Awakenings, to explore stories of Awakenings, Enlightenments or Realizations…

Adrial and Teo’Na have asked me (Leslee) to share mine to get the ball rolling, so I’ll do that here (and here’s a post of it, too).

If you’d like to share yours, please feel free to do so as a comment. or if you think you need more space, please email it to me and I’ll create a post for it! (my email address is oneriver69@gmail.com)

We look forward to hearing your story!

Awake Yet?

(Leslee’s Story) (Ghost Radar words appear like [this])

[magic off themselves doesn’t you’ve threw camp studied run]

What is an Awakening?

I dunno.

But some dear friends recently advised me to share an experience, so I will.

Almost exactly 13 years ago, I was married, mothering a happy toddler, living in a house my husband and I had just built, reporting each day to a good job with a very reputable firm, driving an almost-new SUV, and taking particular enjoyment in my gardening…

[seed several]

…and drinking way too much.

Something was quietly eating away at me, like a half-forgotten item on a to-do list.

I had begun reading Deepak Chopra and Caroline Myss, and was beginning to wonder if perhaps my subtle discontent was not caused by others… Perhaps there was something I needed to change in myself in order to feel happy.

I hadn’t read much on spiritual and metaphysical topics since the late 80’s. I had sort of sworn that off as a lot of wishful thinking that wasn’t likely to lead to much of real value… But it was a nice distraction.

In 1999, though, Spirituality seemed to offer some solace and hope… I was trying to understand how on Earth I could feel so restless and agitated when I seemed to enjoy so many of the things that so many people dreamed of… And I sure wasn’t finding the answers on my own.

The more I read, the more I felt I was getting closer to some answers. I tried not to focus too much on my husband’s lack of interest in where I was going. After all, spirituality had not been part of the foundation of our relationship, so it wasn’t “reasonable” for me to expect him to jump on that train with me.

[slightly fed sad disease our another usually fifth bare blew total caught selection loud half]

[rain shells riding you’d situation]

I began having some vivid, other-worldly dreams that I remembered in great detail. They seemed to be trying to tell me or [worry Asia cage] remind me of something. I noticed a deep subtle yearning that I could neither understand or describe.

[hill must]

Then, in July 1999, while sleeping late on a typical Sunday morning at home, my world broke wide open… But I was the only person in the house who knew about it.

Out of the undefined darkness of deep sleep, my awareness arose, staring at my two hands. It was as if I was trying to recognize them, understand what they were for… There was nothing else in my field of vision, and I couldn’t see beyond my wrists.

As I turned them over to look at my palms, another pair of hands appeared to the upper left. Radiantly pulsing with brilliant white light, they moved towards mine. They were not blindingly bright, but seemed to be made of pure light, no physical substance whatsoever. They reached down, and taking my hands, folded [cross anything when equally] them together, palms crossed, while also completely enveloping them in their glow.

In an instant, all awareness both exploded and dissloved into brilliant light.

It wasn’t white, [name] it wasn’t colored… [southern] It was indescribable, other than that I knew it [forward] was light. It had no spatial or temporal characteristics; [arm] I simply knew that This – whatever it was – was the Source and Nature of Everything. I understood that somehow, everything arises from This. It was like [buy] being shown where to go to find whatever was needed.

I have no idea how long I was there.

At some point, some very vague objects arose just partially, and I had a faint awareness of flying and being shown keys to things. I became aware that, from this State, awareness could place itself in the midst of anything, and understand that thing infinitely.

I saw that worlds are mere illusions, arising out of this vast ocean of Emptiness, and they’re layered and intertwined in one another. I saw that minds and beings exist in the same way: pulsing, arising to appear briefly, transform, blend, and dissolve back into Emptiness.

There’s nothing but Oneness, because in this way it all arises – spontaneously – from Source.

Creator simply arises as an awareness from Source… God – or gods – may arise, spontaneously, or from sound generated by Source.

Beings and worlds may arise or be built from Source, or they may simply arise spontaneously in an instant.

In this way, “we” are all here by choice as reflections of OurSelf. We are Source, we are Creator, we are “God”.

Eventually, my awareness faded into near-awareness, and then into the black darkness and so on. I never completely lost consciousness, and at some point I could “feel”, and realized my mind was returning to my body. There was a sensation of energy like electricity coursing through a circuit. Then it felt like a tingling, and eventually that tingling was contained by matter (flesh). Some time after that I [represent] began to recognize the flesh as fingers and toes, and then I could feel the fingers and toes were touching bedclothes.

Gradually, my body awareness traveled along my limbs to my torso, then my head, until I could [nature] feel my cheek against [sky] the sheet. I still felt like a disorganized cacophony of vibration and matter, and some time passed before I could wiggle my toes or open my eyes.

When I decided to look around, I fully expected to see a completely different world than the one in which I’d last lain down in bed. I continued to bask in the radiant bliss of dissolution, and I was anticipating, hope upon hope, that when I opened my eyes I would behold the answers to all my remaining questions.

I was disappointed.

It was the same room, and it was empty. I could faintly hear the TV playing downstairs and knew by the sunlight in the room that it was probably nine o’clock.

I didn’t smell any breakfast cooking.

It took a while before I could bring myself to roll over and sit up, much less get dressed and go downstairs. My body still felt like I’d been electrocuted, with an intense bliss coursing up and down my spine. I had never experienced such an intense arousal without wanting to touch or be touched.

I sat on the edge of the bed, closed my eyes, and went back, mentally, over what had happened.

What was that?

Whose hands were those?

I had to find that “person”… I needed answers.

To be honest, I can’t remember if I even told my husband about it at the time. I think I may have tried… But I felt instinctively that there was no way to convey the impact of that experience to a person who wasn’t even interested in what I’d been reading.

My body continued to buzz regularly – but randomly – for about 3 weeks. I began to meditate, hoping for a repeat experience.  But day-to-day life was split between my inner experiences and the roles I was trying to continue to fulfill on the “outside”. I was just beginning to use the Internet, and had very little free time. So the best chance I had of learning more about my experience was through visiting bookstores. I found lots of descriptions, but none really resonated completely with what I had come to know.

My search was broad: I had a lot of questions. I think I felt that if I could find some answers, I could file the experience away neatly, integrate it with my other experiences, and get on with life. But it seemed that every rock overturned yielded maybe one answer and 2-3 more questions.

It got harder and harder to pretend to live a “normal” life, and harder and harder to share my life and space with such a “normal” person as my husband. Even more challenging [clock] was the effort to show up at work for 8 or more hours a day and act like a “normal” architect.

Somehow, though, my son seemed to fit right into my new puzzle. Maybe it was the autism, maybe it was his natural sensibility [art]… maybe it was [worried] an instance of a teacher [firm] appearing as a child in my life to set me back on track…

Now, in 2012, with much water under the bridge, I sometimes still wonder: “Awake yet?”

I dunno. I’m still here… It seems.

Maybe I’m at least stirring in my sleep…

Connecting Meditation Instructions 14 April 2012

(to Leslee, from Lhamo Dorje & Teo’Na)

(with [Ghost Radar] comments)

If you wish to connect with a friend from another star system or planet, please follow this visualization.

Please begin by asking permission, and end with a gesture of gratitude.

1. Relax
2. Close your eyes
3. [field] Imagine/visualize [appearance] a craft landing in a beautiful field in front of you. Visualize this craft as being a “constructed” object.
4. It may be any size you prefer. You may see a shuttle, a scout ship, a Mothership, or anything in between.
5. Visualize/imagine that the craft develops a very inviting opening that you may comfortably walk into. Step into that opening, and encounter a closed doorway.
6. The doorway opens, and you enter into a vestibule which becomes filled with light, obscuring all features. The light may be colored…
7. Gradually, a new doorway appears [somebody], and someone opens the door and welcomes you through.
8. Once you step through the second doorway, and past your greeter, you see your friend standing before you, smiling peacefully.
9. From this point, you ask their name, and you also ask them YOUR name, and from there you proceed however you like.

If you fall asleep during this process, please trust; you will be guided safely home.

If you continue in meditation, please end your visit by returning to the same doorway and greeter that you used when you entered.

Please begin by asking permission, and end with a gesture of gratitude.

(with [Ghost Radar] comments)

If you wish to connect with a friend from Inner Earth, please follow this visualization. First, decide whether you wish to connect with a being in Agartha (the cavernous regions), or Telos (the inner surface regions of the Hollow Earth).

Please begin by asking permission, and end with a gesture if gratitude.

1. Relax
2. Close your eyes
3. Imagine yourself standing at the edge of a beautiful field.
3. [cave] Imagine/visualize walking into the center of the field, and finding a hole in the ground, that is an entry to a cave.
5. If you wish to visit Agartha, these entries are usually small. You may envision yourself squeezing through a rabbit hole into a large, cavernous, softly-lit space.
6. If you wish to visit Telos, these openings (such as at the poles) are generally round and large enough to enter comfortably, without stooping, by either a slope or a stair through an airy tunnel, into a vast, open, light-filled space.
7. In any case, visualize/imagine that the space you have now entered develops a very inviting opening that you may comfortably walk into. Step into that opening, and encounter a closed doorway.
8. The doorway opens, and you enter into a vestibule which becomes filled with light, obscuring all features. The light may be colored…
9. Gradually, a new doorway appears [somebody], and someone opens the door and welcomes you through.
10. Once you step through the second doorway, and past your greeter, you see your friend standing before you, smiling peacefully.
11. From this point, you ask their name, and you also ask them YOUR name, and from there you proceed however you like.

If you fall asleep during this process, please trust; you will be guided safely home.

If you continue in meditation, please end your visit by returning to the same doorway and greeter that you used when you entered.

Please begin by asking permission, and end with a gesture of gratitude.